I labored

May the name of the LORD be blessed!" 

Nine months risking my own to give a life

Not once but five 

Hours I labored to bring forth life

Not one but thirty five

Nights I lay wake without sleep

Not one but too many

Watching my body reshape

My hair thin out 

My emotions so frail 

But my spirit was fierce

The love of a mother

holding in her arms and 

Gazing into the eyes of the gift of life, 

Asking for nothing but the strength to love them more

Yet you, who was to make me feel secure as I risked my life,  

Tore down my walls with your unkind words

Yet you,who was to ease my pain as I labored, drove a knife through my heart with your actions,

Yet you, who was to give me rest after sleepless nights, 

Burdened me with a heavy heart.

Nine months risking my own to give a life

Not once but five 

Hours I labored to bring forth life

Not one but thirty five

A labor of love that you failed to appreciate  

A gift from God you shall not scorn

The LORD gives, and the LORD takes away. May the name of the LORD be blessed!

Do you want to leave?

Then he opened the gates of mercy

And I heard His voice speak 

through the heart of a man

Of justice and peace

Do you want to leave ?

To Leave behind,

Thirteen years of false hope

Twelve years of affliction 

Eleven years of frustration 

Ten years of loneliness

Nine years of sorrow 

Eight years of self doubt 

Seven years of anger

Six years of regret

Four years of sadness

Three years of loss

Two years of fatigue

A year of lost dreams

Do you want to leave behind,

Your fears and find your courage?

You will not know where you will go from here,

But do you want to leave?

And that was the turning moment,

When,"I have to stay," became

"I can leave,"

Yes,I will go with you...

Pain

Sometimes you have to go through pain to conform to change 

When you must let go 

Of the only thing that you know 

And at times change relieves us from pain 

When the thorn in your side is taken out

Either way 

You need to stick through it

to become stronger

Because pain is just a flesh wound 

Testing the endurance of your spirit

So when your flesh aches and your head pounds

Reach deep within you and learn to think the right way;

spirit over mind, and mind over body

So that your transformation is not a white wash

But a manifestation of the spirit within,

Your will to heal.

It's cold outside

It was cold in my heart,

It was a lonely house,

With dreams covered in dust.

The music that played,

Was hope that beat with a faint pulse.

You knocked at my door,

I had no desire to answer.

You looked into my heart

through the dark window,

That kept the sun from shining in.

It was cold in my heart,

I sat beside a cold fireplace,

My spirit could not ignite the flame.

You walked in from the woods,

With firewood in one arm and a warm cover in another.

You showed a heart that promised to light the fire,

Gentle hands that promised to strum the cord of my heart,

And play the rhythm of my soul.

I let you stay a while,

When you placed the cover over my shoulders,

When you laid the wood in the fireplace,

When you turned on turned on the kettle, for a cup to warm my blood.

I gave up my key,

and let you move in to my heart.

Then I closed my eyes,

So that I could dream again, 

But you took the cover,

And pulled the wool over my eyes,

And lit a fire to burn my dreams.

You held my key,

And changed the locks,

I could not get out,

no one could come in,

Little red riding hood,

Closed in a cupboard.

Gratel, lost in the woods.

Rapanzel, locked up in a tower.

Snow White in a slumber.