Kissing frogs

A heart break 

The rain on your parade

After the rain

The frogs come out first

Hopping to catch your heart

Do you have to kiss frogs 

To find a prince?

Where does love hide when it rains

The frogs hop on the ground

Hopping to catch your heart

But love has wings

It swoops your heart up 

So keep your gaze up 

That is where love is. 

It's the rainbow after the rain 

A portrait of your soul

The color of your aura painted in the sky

That time

That time 

When you see the cloud of despair hanging over you

And you are trying so hard to find that silver lining 

And not let that cloud rain down on you 

And dampen your spirit  

Deep breaths 

Deep sighs

How do you spin gold from what looks like a pile of straw? 

How do you paint a rainbow when every thing seems black and white?

How to you find a melody when your soul feels out of tune?

How to you get a positive charge in a negative environment

Where do you find a friend when there is  none who stands beside you 

You open your mind so that you learn to see with your eyes closed 

Fall on the straw and you will not hit the hard ground

The aura of your spirit  is not black and white 

Find your color and paint your world red, blue, or yellow

The world had its own heart beat 

Listen to your own

And dance to the  rhythm of your own spirit

Remember that no friend is better than one who pretends

And be the positive charge in a negative environment. 

My kindred spirit

I was tired of being with company

Yet feeling so alone

Of attractions that fades like pastels in the wind

Likes that turned to disappointment 

Excitement that fizzled with the first kiss

Longing to find a heart that matched my passion

When just holding hands and taking long walks was the perfect date

I was tired of undefined relationships 

That emotional roller coaster 

My mind had grown weary 

Until one came along

Who moved his world to make room for me

I was impressed by the effort

He defined our relationship

It was to be a marriage 

I was intrigued by his boldness

comforted by the security of a defined relationship

I thought finally 

I am off the emotional roller coaster 

I can put my feet on the ground

My head can stop spinning

My heart can settle 

I have found the one I was looking for

But this happy ever after was missing one thing

Me

I was not in the picture 

I was someone who was looking for someone before I found myself

I was looking for someone to fill the void in my heart 

When my own spirit should have filed that void

That day I said yes to the greatest mistake of my life

The mistake was not being with the wrong  person

It was running away from my self

By riding that emotional roller coaster 

And when I was tired of the highs and lows

I settled for the second best thing

Someone else 

Because I was at my lowest point 

Living in the shadow

Just like a moth 

I was drawm to the faintest glow of light 

Like a moth

I circled around it, just that, circled 

Endlessly

Going nowhere,

I had settled around a lamp

Because I was at my lowest point

Living in the shadow of my insecurities

I settled for the second best thing

Someone else

When I should have settled for the first 

Myself

That time in the shadows

Was the time to grow into my self

Filling the void in my heart with my own spirit

Lighting the candle within me

Perfecting my aura

Because When my light is at its brightest

Then I would clearly see who I am 

Then I will attract the one 

Who is my perfect match

My kindred spirit 

You do not put my light out

Because their light 

Will glow just as bright as mine

 

I labored

May the name of the LORD be blessed!" 

Nine months risking my own to give a life

Not once but five 

Hours I labored to bring forth life

Not one but thirty five

Nights I lay wake without sleep

Not one but too many

Watching my body reshape

My hair thin out 

My emotions so frail 

But my spirit was fierce

The love of a mother

holding in her arms and 

Gazing into the eyes of the gift of life, 

Asking for nothing but the strength to love them more

Yet you, who was to make me feel secure as I risked my life,  

Tore down my walls with your unkind words

Yet you,who was to ease my pain as I labored, drove a knife through my heart with your actions,

Yet you, who was to give me rest after sleepless nights, 

Burdened me with a heavy heart.

Nine months risking my own to give a life

Not once but five 

Hours I labored to bring forth life

Not one but thirty five

A labor of love that you failed to appreciate  

A gift from God you shall not scorn

The LORD gives, and the LORD takes away. May the name of the LORD be blessed!

Do you want to leave?

Then he opened the gates of mercy

And I heard His voice speak 

through the heart of a man

Of justice and peace

Do you want to leave ?

To Leave behind,

Thirteen years of false hope

Twelve years of affliction 

Eleven years of frustration 

Ten years of loneliness

Nine years of sorrow 

Eight years of self doubt 

Seven years of anger

Six years of regret

Four years of sadness

Three years of loss

Two years of fatigue

A year of lost dreams

Do you want to leave behind,

Your fears and find your courage?

You will not know where you will go from here,

But do you want to leave?

And that was the turning moment,

When,"I have to stay," became

"I can leave,"

Yes,I will go with you...

Pain

Sometimes you have to go through pain to conform to change 

When you must let go 

Of the only thing that you know 

And at times change relieves us from pain 

When the thorn in your side is taken out

Either way 

You need to stick through it

to become stronger

Because pain is just a flesh wound 

Testing the endurance of your spirit

So when your flesh aches and your head pounds

Reach deep within you and learn to think the right way;

spirit over mind, and mind over body

So that your transformation is not a white wash

But a manifestation of the spirit within,

Your will to heal.

It's cold outside

It was cold in my heart,

It was a lonely house,

With dreams covered in dust.

The music that played,

Was hope that beat with a faint pulse.

You knocked at my door,

I had no desire to answer.

You looked into my heart

through the dark window,

That kept the sun from shining in.

It was cold in my heart,

I sat beside a cold fireplace,

My spirit could not ignite the flame.

You walked in from the woods,

With firewood in one arm and a warm cover in another.

You showed a heart that promised to light the fire,

Gentle hands that promised to strum the cord of my heart,

And play the rhythm of my soul.

I let you stay a while,

When you placed the cover over my shoulders,

When you laid the wood in the fireplace,

When you turned on turned on the kettle, for a cup to warm my blood.

I gave up my key,

and let you move in to my heart.

Then I closed my eyes,

So that I could dream again, 

But you took the cover,

And pulled the wool over my eyes,

And lit a fire to burn my dreams.

You held my key,

And changed the locks,

I could not get out,

no one could come in,

Little red riding hood,

Closed in a cupboard.

Gratel, lost in the woods.

Rapanzel, locked up in a tower.

Snow White in a slumber.