Tuesday, July 28, 2015

Let's have a good breakup

Let's have a good breakup,
You will not threaten me to stay,
And I will not threaten to leave,
Let's hold the door for each other,
As we walk out together,
Because the room that we shared,
That heart that kept us together,
Is now too small to hold both our dreams,
Let us move out without burning the house down,
By not breaking each other's heart, 
And breaking each other's dreams,
Let us move out together,
Without leaving the other behind,
Let us leave the lights on and the door open,
So that either one of us,
Is free to come back,
to the place that we once shared,
And still find fond memories on the walls,
And a warm rug near an open fire,
The place that we once shared should not be a lonely room,  
Because in our hearts,
We hold each other in friendship.


Fish bowl

You hold your dreams in a jar,
You guard them like a treasure,
Wrapping your arms around  them,
watching them with glee,
Like a gold fish you contain them,
You fear to let go,
Because your dreams are bigger than yourself,
And demand higher expectations,
But like a fish in a bowl,
your dreams remain as big as you keep your mind closed,
As deep as you keep your feet on the ground,
And as high as you look down.
But your dreams are bigger than yourself,
Because they are your spirit,
Which is bigger than the fish bowl,
Has wings to fly,
and needs to soar.

Wednesday, July 22, 2015

Who am I?


Unresolved emotions
Questions looking for answers 
the stress that weighs on my shoulders and in my head 
I empty my mind
I think not of myself
I feel lonely
desperate for someone to hold me 
and remind me of who I am 
To see in me what I cannot
I hold my breath
But I find none
Who reminds me to breath out 
So I burn the wick of my candle until the wax puts it out
I hold the match until it burns my fingers
I sit in darkness 
I think until my mind hurts and my flesh aches
Yet my spirit does not burn out
But rages on like a roaring flame
Licking every corner of my mind
Burning down the walls that close my mind
Connecting me with the universe that feeds my soul
The universe embraces me
and a light flikers in my mind
I see the depths of my soul
There lies the wisdom that speaks to me
Words of life
Flowing in a rhythm that syncs mind body and spirit 
Taming my raging emotions 
Creating harmony with chaos
Restoring order from within
Calming my mind
Relaxing my body 
Directing my path to a resting place
There I will sleep
Her words a lullaby 
Her love notes


Monday, July 20, 2015

WALK AWAY



An abusive relationship is like a loaded gun,
Keeping one is playing a game of cheating death,
How long can you play Russian Roulette?
The time to get out is before you get numb to abuse,
When you stop trying to appease your abuser,
When you stop caring about what they think or what they do,
You think you have saved your sanity,
Yet you have just set the trigger on a loaded gun,
Who will pull the trigger? 
The abuser will,
in that moment of realizing they no longer have power over you,
The abused will,
In that moment when the will to live 
becomes stronger than the fear to die,
The time to get out of an abusive relationship is before you get numb,
When you can be still and hear your heartbeat,
When you can look in the mirror and still recognize yourself,
When you can still feel the ground beneath your feet to stand up and walk away.






Do you want to get well?

 
As you lay on your bed of dreams
You knock on the door of hope
When you write your desires on the wall of your heart 
Your heart bleeds the life that is your spirit
You feel as though you will die 
If you do not heal
Then one day a door appears  
Presenting itself as a question 
Do you want to get well?
An opportunity to realize a dream
A door unlocked but not open
you cannot see what lies beyond 
Fear of what you do not know sets in
Do you want to get well?
You dare to answer yes to what lies beyond
The door swings open
And all you can see is mountains and valleys
The road is unclear 
While your feet need the ground to keep you standing 
Your spirit soars above all your fears
Because your will is stronger than your flesh 
And your will shall pave a way
Do you want to get well? 
Rise up from your bed and walk.



Wednesday, July 8, 2015

Joy and Pain

When you choose to pursue love,
You embrace all that comes with it,
The joy of being accepted as you are,
And the pain of rejection,
You cannot have one without the other,
Because you know joy after feeling pain,
And you endure the pain because you have experienced joy

Trust

You do not trust anyone with your feelings,
So you do not share them,
You keep them to yourself,
You move into a relationship,
But you never unpack,
Because you are not sure if this is home,
So you live out of your suitcase,
Always ready to leave,
You keep one foot out of the door, 
Because doubt is always pushing you out,
And there is nothing stronger pulling you in,
Drawing your heart to stay,
Warming your heart to open,
A net to catch your heart before it hits the floor and breaks,
That net is called trust,
Which is woven by love,
Drawing your heart to stay,
Warming your heart to open,
Making you feel safe to free fall in love