A man with honor

A man with honor is confident and yet not proud,

His humility serves him well in honoring a woman.

A man without honor is proud,

he is foolish to dishonor a woman in serving himself.

A man with honor is attractive,

For he knows how to respectfully get what he needs from a woman.

The respect she gives him is earned and not demanded,

She comes to him with an open heart, because he holds out an open hand 

and holds her close to his heart.

A man without honor is unattractive,

He has a woman but not her heart,

Her closed heart cannot yield respect,

So he demands her respect with a closed fist,

A hand to subdue her at his feet.

A man with honor stands tall,

for beside him is a woman who is a pillar of strength,

For her love for him is strong.

A man without honor leans on his arrogance,

For beneath him is a woman too weak from carrying the burden of his pride.

A man with honor holds a woman up

For he takes down her walls to set her heart free

A man without honor hold a woman down 

For he builds walls around her and his ego consumes her.

a good breakup

Why can we not have a good breakup?

You will not threaten me to stay,

And I will not threaten to leave,

Let's hold the door for each other,

As we walk out together,

And part our way,

Because the room that we shared,

That heart that kept us together,

Is now too small to hold both our dreams,

Let us move out without burning the house down,

By not breaking each other's heart, 

And breaking each other's dreams,

Let us move out together,

Without leaving the other behind,

Let us leave the lights on and the door open,

So that either one of us,

Is free to come back,

to the place that we once shared,

And still find fond memories on the walls,

And a warm rug near an open fire,

The place that we once shared should not be a lonely room,  

Because in our hearts,

We hold each other in friendship.

Fish bowl

You hold your dreams in a jar,

You guard them like a treasure,

Wrapping your arms around  them,

watching them with glee,

Like a gold fish you contain them,

You fear to let go,

Because your dreams are bigger than yourself,

And demand higher expectations,

But like a fish in a bowl,

your dreams remain as small as you keep your mind closed,

As shallow as you keep your feet on the ground,

And as low as you look down upon yourself

Look up 

Let your mind see

For your dreams are bigger than yourself,

Because they are your spirit,

Which is bigger than the fish in the bowl,

Have courage

let go

Your dreams have wings to fly,

and needs to soar.

Love notes

Unresolved emotions

Questions looking for answers 

The stress that weighs on my shoulders and in my head 

I empty my mind

I think not of myself

I feel lonely

Desperate for someone to hold me 

and remind me of who I am 

To see in me what I cannot

I hold my breath

but I find none

who reminds me to breath out 

So I burn the wick of my candle until the wax puts it out

I hold the match until it burns my fingers

I sit in darkness 

I think until my mind hurts and my flesh aches

Yet my spirit does not burn out

But rages on like a roaring flame

Licking every corner of my mind

Burning down the walls that close my mind

Connecting me with the universe that feeds my soul

The universe embraces me

and a light flikers in my mind

I see the depth of my soul

There lies the wisdom that speaks to me

Words of life

Flowing in a rhythm that syncs mind body and spirit 

Taming my raging emotions 

Creating harmony with chaos

Restoring order from within

Calming my mind

Relaxing my body 

Directing my path to a resting place

There I will sleep

Her words a lullaby 

Her love notes

Serenade my soul in quiet meditation 

WALK AWAY

An abusive relationship is like a loaded gun,

Keeping one is playing a game of cheating death,

How long can you play Russian Roulette?

The time to get out is before you get numb to abuse,

When you stop trying to appease your abuser,

When you stop caring about what they think or what they do,

You think you have saved your sanity,

Yet you have just set the trigger on a loaded gun,

Who will pull the trigger? 

The abuser will,

in that moment of realizing they no longer have power over you,

The abused will,

In that moment when the will to live 

becomes stronger than the fear to die,

The time to get out of an abusive relationship is before you get numb,

When you can be still and hear your heartbeat,

When you can look in the mirror and still recognize yourself,

When you can still feel the ground beneath your feet to stand up and walk away.

Do you want to get well?

 

You lay on your bed of dreams

knocking on the door of hope

As you write your desires on the wall of your heart 

Your heart bleeds the life that is your spirit

You feel as though you will die 

If you do not heal

Then one day a door appears  

Presenting itself as a question 

Do you want to get well?

An opportunity to realize a dream

A door unlocked but not open

you cannot see what lies beyond 

Fear of what you do not know sets in

Do you want to get well?

You dare to answer yes to what lies beyond

The door swings open

And all you can see is mountains and valleys

The road is unclear 

While your feet need the ground to keep you standing 

Your spirit soars above all your fears

Because your will is stronger than your flesh 

And your will shall pave a way

Do you want to get well? 

Rise up from your bed and walk.

Joy and Pain

When you choose to pursue love,

You embrace all that comes with it,

The joy of being accepted as you are,

And the pain of rejection,

You cannot have one without the other,

Because you know joy after feeling pain,

And you endure the pain because you have experienced joy

Trust

You do not trust anyone with your feelings,

So you do not share them,

You keep them to yourself,

You move into a relationship,

But you never unpack,

Because you are not sure if this is home,

So you live out of your suitcase,

Always ready to leave,

You keep one foot out of the door, 

Because doubt is always pushing you out,

And there is nothing stronger pulling you in,

Drawing your heart to stay,

Warming your heart to open,

A net to catch your heart before it hits the floor and breaks,

That net is called trust,

Which is woven by love,

Drawing your heart to stay,

Warming your heart to open,

Making you feel safe to free fall in love